A Chicken with its body cut off

I've been thinking about my thoughts constantly this month. I'm trying to be aware of how I perceive everything that happens to me and how I'm handling all I need to do.. which reminds that I left the laundry in the washing machine.
Now that thats taken care of.. I've felt like a chicken's head wondering where my body's running off to since school started. (Did that work? I was just trying to be more creative than the "chicken with its head cut off" thing). But it actually makes sense for me because really my body's been going through the motions of everything I have to do and my head's not really there.
This means that I don't have a good grasp on what I need to do for all my classes and when I am in class my mind wanders all over the place. Feeling sort of lost and jumbled would normally drive me insane and make me panicky about getting back on track and into a rhythm, but like I said I've been doing some introspection. My self awareness has led me to a surprisingly comfortable place: I'm grateful for the moments where I'm lost.
I spend a lot of time planning and preparing. I don't necessarily like doing it, but if you've been reading my posts for awhile you'll understand that its made me happy to have a plan and to accomplish things. So what I've done this month is taught myself that when that doesn't happen, it doesn't have to lead to a lack of happiness. I am capable of not only being content when my life isn't totally straightened out, but I am happy when it isn't.

I don't really have a "how to" for you, which makes me feel a little bad for posting about this. I just had to think my way into this idea. I do think it started with my Attitude of Gratitude week though.
It was really strange being grateful for things I would have previously been irritated at or I would have complained about, but none of it seemed like a big deal at all after I told myself I was in fact grateful for  the small trial. And when the little annoyances and hassles aren't a big deal, there isn't anything preventing you from being happy. Moral of the story: TRY IT! Try going through a week of being grateful for EVERYTHING. that means being grateful for the mosquito bites you get at work, for a stolen longboard/bike, for having a messy house to clean, for the heaps of homework your teachers give you all at once, for the people who didn't sit next to you in class.. (just to name a few..) Try consciously telling yourself you're grateful for all of it.. at the end of the day try to remember what "trials" you endured and be grateful for the life you live.