Misjudged my Priorities

I haven't had an update for you since my marriage month began.

Thats because any update on my progress would really just be a negative report about how I've totally bombed this month's goals. 

I've been completely disheartened and confused, but thankfully I understand now that I simply misjudged what my priorities are supposed to be.

I've been told in every young women's marriage lesson ever to marry someone who loves God more than me. I felt I kept that in mind while I dated my husband, but now I find myself placing our relationship above the relationship I have with my Savior and my Father in Heaven. 

I'm not sure who reads this.. I'm sure some of you aren't Mormon, but it doesn't matter. If your relationship with God is stronger than it is with anyone else in your life, you will be able to love anyone  and everyone far greater than you ever believed you could. I've been so focused on placing my husband first, my marriage first.. and frankly I just thought it was cute to have my marriage month correspond with my anniversary.. that I placed marriage before faith. But marriage isn't between just my husband and myself. 

If I want to love my husband more, it might happen in small increments by going out on dates and serving him, but it will come in waves by strengthening my faith. This quote is actually from a Christian website, but I like it

"If happiness is our primary goal, we'll get a divorce as soon as happiness seems to wane," Thomas says. "If receiving love is our primary goal, we'll dump our spouse as soon as they seem to be less attentive. But if we marry for the glory of God, to model His love and commitment to our children, and to reveal His witness to the world, divorce makes no sense."

I want that. I want my marriage to be, in itself, of God and devoted to God. Right now it is just.. not that way. I don't know how this will work when it is just me working towards this specific relationship, but I also hope that being closer to the Lord myself will be an example to Sean and I'll know how to be happiness in our home.  

On that note, marriage month is officially over. It will reconvene, possibly with different goals, in November. The rest of September and October will be given to faith, which would've been my third month anyways. A rundown of these new goals will come shortly!