A Test

Well I had a bit of a slip up with my "Go a week without telling my husband anything he does wrong" goal last night. Just a day shy of completing the goal too! Darn. (I am on the fence about whether I should count it or not though because technically he brought up what he did and I agreed. What do you think?)

So this morning I feel discouraged and a bit lonely. He was off to work early and I'm supposed to work soon.. but whenever I feel this way I find myself running through conversations with my boss about taking today off. My job as a tour guide requires me to be happy and service-oriented for about 6 hours straight. While I almost inevitably leave happy from my job, I know that the people coming today have paid a lot for a guide that can put everything aside for them. I have an awesome boss who understands when we have bad days, and would rather us take a day to ourselves than represent the PCC in a negative way.
So my problem at this point is that I'm tired of taking days off because of this! I feel like I'm disappointing my boss and robbing myself of an opportunity to do something I love, but I don't feel at all ready to go serve people all day.
I'm using today as a test. Can I leave my problems at the back gate and smile for everyone else.

“It makes me happy to encounter goodness, love of work, humane intelligence, and people no matter at what kind of job, be it ever so humble, or ever so exalted, who do it well and con amore.”
-Bernard Berenson

Maybe, just maybe, I can bring someone else happiness today by going into work.