Happy July! Though I am sure my absence in the blog world has been missed (ya right), I won't waste anyone's time apologizing for my inactivity. It may or may not happen again, who really knows whats going to happen after a burst of "I-should-keep-up-with-my-blog" motivation.
Whats funny is that before I sat down to send some thoughts into the unknown, I had so many of them. Now I can't seem to think of anything that was so pressing before, but I think I need to touch upon what I've been doing the past 4 months.
In short, I have not been doing my happiness project. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for lasting 6 months on one project I have to say. Either way, I can go forward from here in a few different directions.
a. I can write off my blog, call it a good ride and take one developing commitment off my plate.
b. I can revamp the resolutions I've set for myself and pick up where I left off (probably skipping the health part for now since that's where I died before.)
c. I can keep the blog, skip the project, and rant about nothing for awhile.
Fine, you're right.. I should probably go with b. But somehow I feel different from when I was going through my happiness project before.
I don't want a checklist, I want to live so tuned in to God's plan for me that my actions and everyday choices reflect what he wants me to do. So after I work to figure out what brings me and my family happiness, I will rely on a more reliable source to remind me to keep up those things.
Joy is happiness that burns in your soul. There is no extinguishing the feelings of love that you will feel when you understand your place in eternity as a child of an ever-watchful God. Loneliness does not exist, fear does not exist where the love of God is embraced.
What can be so heartbreaking about this truth is that SO many people believe that being loved is dependent on their actions or beliefs. I have earnestly been trying to love as Christ and our Father in Heaven love us and to see people through their eyes. As I have tried to do so, however imperfectly I may be accomplishing it, I understand more fully how perfect and enveloping that love is. It is true joy to feel the love is given FREELY to us, and to feel it for another person, any person.
Wow.. I didn't know I would be going in that direction when I started this.
I also have a word to say concerning friendship. I sort of recently moved to a new home (welcome to Provo).. which means I have hardly any friends in the area. I don't know what this month was supposed to focus on, but I think right now I'll be focusing on building friendships and the best way to do it.
Maybe no one else needs a tutorial on how to make friends, but its something I could use so I figure I'll let yall know what works and doesn't work about the way I do it.
Until next time :)
